After waiting until our late 30s to get married, Claire and I felt pressure to start a family. And sooner rather than later. Parenthood had always filled me with ambivalence – a decision put off until the future. Suddenly, the clock was running out and I knew that whatever my concerns, I had no doubt Claire would be a wonderful and loving mother.
But yes – I did feel scared. And again, like being married, the prospect of being a parent was more than just a temporary situation. It was permanent. When I held my newborn daughter Margot in the delivery room and felt her little heartbeat against my chest, I knew everything had changed forever. At that moment, though, any anxiety was offset by euphoria.